Crazy/Beautiful

Nobody updates eljay anymore :(  
This weekend proved to be interesting. 
I met some pretty BA chicks. Genevive. Natalie "sweet tits". Jamie. And Nicole? 
I think I have a problem.
I was an asshole Friday. 
I made an ass of myself last night. 
I think tomorrow I am done.
Next weekend will hopefully be THE SHIT. Unless Im grounded. Which I might mention will be BS.
Im tired, so Im out. 
Night
xoxo
Kelsie

Ilovecustumeparties!!

First off, TILDY is HOTT!! Id hit it lol. If you are that curious as to who tildy is, figure it out.
So its been about a month. Nothing too exciting going on. We FINALLY got the internet fixed at my house... its about damn time!! I didnt know how much longer I could take it, Anyway.
Wabash is getting old. Except for the times when people ride bicycles down the hallway with horns that they wont stop honking, or when they dress up in alligator suits!! I may have to call this kid again, hes f-ing hilarious!!
Knowing you are a slore, and actually feeling like it are 2 different things. The feeling like it is WORSE though. Thank god for gay friends that will cheer you up when you call them crying on the steps of someones house at 2 in the morning.
Also, thank god for my cell phone. I cherish it like it is my child. We are pretty much connected at the hip.
I love hanging out with the girls in my class. We talked about living together, which would be AMAZING. And if that doesnt go through, they are still some of the best people to ever get to know. 
Drunk dialing home probably isnt a good idea... Oh how I love my sister. 
I had to call in today. That sucks. Even though work is rough sometimes, I still dont like to miss it. I mean, what is life without "golden moments" -- its a McD's thing. You wouldnt understand. 
Have I mentioned how much I hate periods?! Damn. So inconvenient. 
I kind of got things cleared up with that girl. Im pretty sure she hates me, but at least she is going to start anymore drama anytime soon. Lesson learned: dont makeout with other girls boyfriends.
Senior night is this Friday... Dear God, when people said senior year goes fast I thought they were exaggerating... but No, it really is flying by.
Umm this weekend sucked. Not going to elaborate, but some people are assholes *cough* COLE *cough* and girls are bitches. 
One thing that was amazing, was the dolla!!! Ask me if you dont know, I may fill you in if you are important enough :D
So I want to quit. My heart isnt in it anymore. Nothing about it is fun. Just the mere thought of it all makes me want to shoot myself... yet I continue to put up with it, why? Good question. 
Boys are overrated. Im done with them for a while. I gave up on Cville boys a looong time ago, Im giving up on Wabash boys, and possibly even Indiana boys... Ill have to wait for college though to make that final. 
Ummm... Hootie Tang was fun. I love Cas, Anna, and Nick. Apparently the show House is awesome... 
My senior picture proofs came in finally. I may post some eventually if I dont become too lazy. 
Have I mentioned how much I LOVE drunk people?! Well just in case I havent, I am now. They are pretty fricken sweet!! 
And have I mentioned how much I hate school? Maybe I would give it a little effort if anyone cared, but I think I gave up when my parents did. I think I wouldnt mind it as much if I actually did my work, but currently it is just a pain in my ass and Im just trying to get through the year and go on to college. 
Now Mrs. Belton is nice, I just despise her class. When I decided to take it, I didnt think I would be learning about shit that happened 300 years ago that theyve already found cures for. And Mrs.Muehlhausen is just fucking crazy!! Dont get me wrong, she is nice [[ sometimes ]] but she sucks at teaching. And Of course guidance office is lovely, however Im probably going to get kicked out. And of course there is Mrs. McCormick who has rocked my socks since day one, but some of our projects this year are stupid. And Spanish with Reinert is okay. Im actually doing quite well for falling asleep everyday. Her class has a lot of cool freshman too. And choir is fun. Mrs Meek loves me for some reason. Im not complaining, but I just dont do anything exceptional so its wierd. I am singing a solo this year though!! And then there is Ping. I hate that class. He is probably one of the most annoying people Ive ever known. And then he yells at our boys when they dont stay on task. LEAD BY FUCKING EXAMPLE PING!!!!!!
Alright, I think Im done with rambling. Thanks to all who cared enough to read this far. Im not even gonna lie, if I were you I would have stopped a while ago. So Im out. Tootles
-Kelsie, Trisha, The Kelsinator, The Kelsiewich, Latoya, Latisha, Carlita... whatever you want to call me.

** I apologize for sounding emo**
I hate life.
I hate drama.
I hate how I do things to please other people, yet do nothing to make myself happy.
I hate how I have a huge mouth and how I often times shove my foot in it.
I hate how much I feel like bawling my eyes out right now.
I hate how emo this sounds despite my not wanting it to.
I hate how I am 17 goddamn years old and how I am not allowed to stay at home by myself because my dad is an overprotective piece of crap that thinks i need an effing babysitter.
I hate how I feel like a wabash hussie, but really I just like to look :)
I hate photo.
I hate school.
Im sick of this whatever. I want it to end. I dont know how to stop it though. Dont really know what caused it, but theres obviously something and I HATE IT. I want things the way they were. And I hate how I have no balls to say what Im feeling to who needs to hear it.
I hate this town.
I want college.
I love how me and my sister talk everyday.
I love how shes coming home on saturday.
I love how saturday will no doubt be amazing.
I love how people try to hurt me by making me feel bad about something, but I am bigger than that and realize they arent good friends.
I need a break.
I want to quit. EVERYTHING. Nothing makes me more unhappy then my everyday routine. Work, cheerleading... I hate it all. And if Brittany gets to stay on the team, Im off. No joking.
Blah.
Carli is awesome. Whenever someone can say what you are thinking without you even telling them, and they are like 1000 miles away, that is amazing.
I feel like I am rambling, so Im done.

You have NO IDEA how scary it is to get pulled over with no pants on...

Sooo.... Im pretty sure stalking is illegal in all 50 states. BUT... it is only illegal if you get caught. AND... it isnt illegal if you just happen to be in the neighborhood. *sigh* I cant wait to go on a secret mission. :)
Umm you know that feeling you get when you just KNOW someone is talking about you? Yeah, I hate that.
Wanna know what else I hate? Yeah, Im just gonna come out and say it. CHEERLEADING. I want to quit. Saturday was one of the most humiliating times of my life.
Im having attachment issues with my hair. I made it look decent and cute today. Now I dont want to get rid of it.
I freaking looooove voicemails cussing me out. And then saying it wasnt him. Hm, okay. Suck it.
Payday tomorrow!!!! I suck at saving money though.
I was a bitch to my grandma tonight. Now I feel bad.
Till is HOTT!!!!
I have a whole week off from work. Oddly enough I think I will miss that place.
I desperately need to go shopping for school clothes.
Have you ever wanted to cry for no reason? Thats how I feel right now. I dont even know why, and it makes me feel EMO and I hate it... but I have tears like welling up in my eyes.
Sooo I want to go to college. I just want to skip senior year.
I actually said something worthwhile in this post, but Im running out of things to say so Im done now. Holla.
♥

Oh yeah. Thank God for my best friend who is going to be here tomorrow when I completely need to be peeled off the pavement.

Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.

So I forgot to post this amazing email from a friend:
12 things to describe a best friend:
slut.
bitch.
whore.
cunt.
twat.
skank.
tramp.
vagina.
hussy.
cooter.
tuna crotch.
slore.

Anyway. I love getting questioned about people calling me from jail and then when I tell the truth about not knowing anything about it, nobody believes me. Only to find out its my cousins white trash babies daddy who is a psycho. #$%@

Umm, I also love how my best friend will be here for me soon when I need her to peel me off the pavement :)

Ok, really this entry was just so I could post that email. Now Im done. Later gator.

Well lets see, I have absolutely nothing to write about, but I also have nothing better to do with my time than spill to this thing. So here it goes.
Summers end is approaching quickly, and I couldnt be any more dissappointed. I wish summer would last forever!!
Im pretty much giving up on the whole guy situation. I dont believe there is one good boy out there.
I looove my cell phone!!!
I decided getting mad at Keegan was dumb. I was just in a mood I guess.
Ive been a huge slacker when it comes to scheduling my senior pictures.
Senior Jeans are amazing.
I really really really really really want to quit. No reason, just dont want to do it anymore.
Well I guess Im going to go because my entries suck and I have nothing to write about. Later.
Livejournal is lame.
♥
Holla

Well, lets see, as for my last entry. I said I was worried about myself, but it was more about my health than anything because I still dont really eat right or have good sleep patterns and Im anemic so it causes my health to suck and make me feel like shit. But its cool if you want to jump to conclusions about what you think I am worried about. Although I do appreciate my friends caring. As for my sister.

Keegan - you have never gave a damn about anything in the past dealing with any struggle I may have been going through. You may think you are fooling everyone else with your new found True Identity bullshit, but I know better. The only thing you have ever done is make up stupid lies about me, and I can almost bet you are concocting some story right now about how you should be worried because I am headed down some bad path. Well, GO SUCK IT. So I realize this is really immature, but you really piss me off sometimes. Anyway.

So my best friends are amazing, even though they can be quite the white sumpremicists at times. I love them, despite their racism. Not to mention we almost kill eachother at practice, but still get along so well. And almost get hit by fire trucks. Man, I love you bitches. And Monday shall be a blast. And so should the first day of school... because Im riding in the BMW!!

I also love Drew. He is one of my best girlfriends.

Ive come to the conclusion that I am a giant P word.

Ummm I dyed my hair tonight. I Love it.

I started taking vitamins today.

Ive successfully avoided bad situations for a whole week now. Yeah, go me.

Alright, enough of this random pointlessness. Im done. Goodnight.

♥

So Ive been trying to update this thing for a while, and still nothing to say, but I feel the need to update.
My life has been amazing lately.
Im getting a little worried about myself.
Samantha has amazing friends. Not only are they cool people, but they are pretty gorgeous. lol
I have some explaining to do.
Ummm yeah, My face is like on the cement. My best friend is the only one that will understand that statement.
I wish...
Ummm I have nothing else to ramble about, so Im out.
♥

Summary -- life as of the past 2 weeks happens to be amazing.

How is it that I was relieved and disappointed all at the same time? Can you feel relieved and disappointed all at the same time? I suppose it was more relief though because now I dont have all the stress of that whole situation.
Umm senior pictures... I want to go to personal touch... too bad they are insanely expensive. Someone gave me the idea to shoot them myself. I would if I was a better photographer.
Senior jeans... gah, Im a procrastinator.
I wish life would just hit me... like I didnt have to go back to school, I already had a career and family and whatnot. Like in the movie 13 going on 30...
If I save most of my money, I could get a DECENT car before christmas. Looks like I will be treating myself to a very nice Christmas present this year.
There are somedays I wish I wasnt a cheerleader.
I wish some family would adopt me. I want an actual family where they talk about whats going on in eachothers lives, eat dinner together... or at least eat dinner at home, and not have fast food EVERY night, and where it isnt just a screaming match. I hate the fact that my parents are divorced... and even more that Im not close to either of them. Blah.
I wish everything at my house wasnt broken.
I want to go to the Macys day parade more than anything.
Ummm new lesson learned... stay away from creepy weird asses, no matter how wonderfully amazing their pool AND hot tub are.
Ummm I guess Im done because Im sick of trying to type quietly as to not wake up Jesus 1 and Jesus 2 (aka, the g-rents)... so I guess Im off to bed. Night loves.
♥

First off, everyone go here and check it out: www.myspace.com/kevintuckerjr
I really need to get my damn internet fixed.
My sister came home this weekend. I missed her more than I thought.
I have recently fallen in love with The Wreckers. I am going to buy their CD.
I always feel like I have something to write, but when it comes to actually writing in here my mind goes blank.
Yesterday I went real shopping!! I bought 3 skirts, a pair of jeans, and 2 pairs of capris and 2 shirts for like 120 dollars!! Hell Yes. And one of the skirts was a size 3... Double Hell Yes!!
My next shopping extravaganza shall be on CDs.
I hate ackward situations.
I also hate slow internet.
Cheerleading practice today after a week of laziness killed me.
Im done because I have to go get ready for work.
Sorry I suck at being an el-jayer now...
♥

Lets see... I really have nothing to write about, but I need to fill my internet void while Im at my grandmas because my computer is still broken. Ghey. I want my internet and phone back soon!!!
Umm.... wanna know why my best friends are cooler than anyone else in the world?? BECAUSE WE WON A GIANT LIFESIZE PONY!!! I love those B-words.
My feet smell really bad right now...
Someone hacked into my yahoo account. Cool. I know its either 1 of 2 people. The same 2 people that broke into it before. Dumbasses. Hope you had fun viewing my spam email.
Im ready for a boyfriend. Too bad there isnt one boy even worth my time.
My sister is coming home tomorrow.
Work was amazing tonight.
Im done now.
♥

So I am currently at my grandparents house, because my computer is completely dunzo. The storm miraculously fixed our satellite, but broke our computer. Ghey. Anyway.
Just like I thought I would, I completely sucked at the SATS. I am very disappointed in myself right now. 1507.... stupid.
My best friend in the entire world left this morning to move halfway across the country. I mean, who am I going to spill EVERYTHING to now? Anna, Cas, and Rach are amazing... I guess I will have to start filling them in on boy drama from now on :)
Speaking of, I am spending an entire weekend with these ladies. Should be a blast. Oh!! And we are going to be performing in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We need a lot of money though, so feel free to give us donations :D
I hate coming to my grandmas... I used to love it, but now it is just something I dont look forward to at all. I mean when my grandpa is here it isnt so bad because he is so willing to let me do whatever... I guess my grandma can be a little annoying and nosey.
So cheer camp was amazing. I love stunting despite the fact it scares the crap out of me, and it is ruining my body. Whatever. I love it, it is amazing.
I made ALL-STAR!!! (the reasoning behind performing in the Macy's parade)
I need a car. Bad.
Soooooooooo.......... running up and rubbing your soaking wet body on a strangers car (while they are inside of the car) is definately a load of fun. You should all try it.
Ummm... I had more to say when I started this. Im done now though because this is a pointless entry. Tootles

Ummm, Ive come to the conclusion that I am a giant P word. What is the big deal about calling someone? I dont know... I dialed every number but the last one and sat there until I heard the operator say "If you'd like to make a call, please hang up and try again, if you need help, hang up and then dial your operator." I repeated this routine like 5 times, then I decided I would call today. Well, I never got around to that either. Im hoping he isnt mad at me. If he is, well he has my number if he wants to talk. Moral of the story... I am a P word.
Ummm, I love my best friends. I always have an amazing time when I am with them. Stripping to Vanilla Ice, Giving birth on the couch, and throwing a bunch of random office supplies... Oh, and I cant forget screaming random obsceneties.
I am looking forward to this weekend.
Anyone who has never seen Tristan & Isolde should probably go rent it right now. It is absolutely amazing.
My house is really fucking hot. My dad needs to quit being a cheap A-hole, and turn on some AC.
My satellite worked fine today while it was raining. Now that it is sunny again, it no longer works. WTF is up with that?
I am queen of pointless el-jay entries, and I really try to not update so much, however when boredom strikes, there is nothing else to do.
Alright, well I am off to go get ready for work. Have a good day everyone.
♥

Sooo... a few days without an update. Probably because I live at McDonalds... and Im grounded from life because my dad is awesome (sarcasm). Anyway.
Even though Ive gotten annoyed with my best friend before, and talked shit... who else is there to get you out of HUGE trouble or listen to you spill your heart because you dont have the balls to spill it to the boy... and who else will cover for you when you tell your family that you ran your car into a ditch because you were swerving to miss a dog in the road :D So Carli... I know I havent exactly been a great friend all the time, but this past week has been amazing and Im glad you are here for me 100%.
Anyway, Im glad I am done with that whole whatever. At least for now... I know it wont be long before I fall again.
It was pointed out to me that everytime anything more than friends is mentioned, I start to avoid him like the plague. Im sorry...
My grandma said that I look like I have sun poisoning. I wasnt aware that the walls of McDonalds had UV rays. Again, pointing out that Im there all the time.
Umm, Im glad I finally have someone on my side who wants to beat Christy's WT ass too!!!
Ive come to the conclusion that my whole family is insane. I mean, every single last one of them is completely nuts. Ive decided that they all have just smoked their brains away... because well they all have done way too many drugs. And that would also explain why I am even half way normal. I dont do drugs, therefore I still have brain cells.
Ummm... I have so much more I could write about, but I dont really feel like spilling ALL of my drama. Goodnight.
♥

Life always comes back to bite you in the ass. Even when you learn from your mistakes and dont involve yourself with certain people anymore, everything always comes back to haunt you. Gah... I hate stress. Bleck. I saw Brian today... it was random. I didnt even notice him at first. Umm... McDonalds has officially taken over my life. I am there more than I am at my house. Not that I am complaining because I need the money to get a car. And I like love my Mickey D's family. And I am just the cutest little fry girl they have ever seen :D So... my grandparents talk smack like none other. They are such hypocrites. Tonight would be perfect to have the trampoline. Too bad it apparently got broken. Yeah right, my WT cousin just didnt want me to have it (even though it was mine!!!) and she sold it. Biiitch. Yeah, Im cussing.. Im doing better though. Carli is currently at the mall with Brian. Dumbass. Ive warned her and warned her... I suppose I will let her get hurt (again!!) I mean, I thought after last time we went to Lafayette she would understand that he is a loser, but whatev. Some people never learn. I even took my own advice and am avoiding the negative people. Yeah, this is a pointless entry, so I am done now. Goodnight.
♥

p.s. I could really go for Arnis cheesy garlic bread with a side of black olives.

So, I couldnt think of a good description of how I was feeling... until Eric said it. Overwhelmed. I have so much on my plate. Tomorrow is going to be one of the hardest days of my life. I dont even know how Im going to go about all of this yet. I hate it when people are disappointed in me. At least I have cheerleading and work to keep me distracted. And, I am seriously considering moving. Ill have to see how things go tomorrow. Anyway, on a happier note. This weekend was one to remember. I have some good stories to tell now. I saw Squire this weekend!! and Lawnmower!! Umm... oh yeah, I got my belly button pierced too!!! It was very random... Hmmm, I dont feel like writing anymore, so Im done. Goodnight.
♥

So I wish other people would update as much as me so I wouldnt feel like such a loser. Sorry to all of you who get sick of reading my updates. 
Ummm I got paid today... I didnt think Ive worked there long enough to get paid yet, but whatever. I guess its cool to get money when you arent expecting it. 
Hmmm, so in a week... it will be 1 year that Ive been single!! Im kind of getting sick of it, but whatever. Ive pretty much given up all hope in guys in this town.. or the state I suppose. 
I love coach Melissa!
I hate Carol. Carol hates oreos... Carol also makes me want to do something violent out of rage. Gah... go suck some hebrewian cock, ya bia. (sorry for the rant, if you knew her you would understand).
I hurt my back today really bad at cheerleading... we jumped like a million times, now I feel like worse than I did last year. I came home and cried and laid in bed for a couple of hours. It sucks. And my dad refuses to take me to the chiropractor because he says thats one of the worst things anyone can ever start doing. So I think I just may mention something to my doctor when I get my physical because I cant do this all year. It like even hurts to sit down... bleh.
I had the craziest dream today, and I actually remembered it. It was quite weird. 
Agreeing to work at McDonalds is like selling your soul to the devil, I swear. lol. Woo for 40 hour work weeks. Im getting used to it though, and I like MOST of the people there. 
Starting tomorrow Im going on a salad and water diet... I was thinking of ways to lose a lot of weight really fast (because Im someone who enjoys instant gratitude) and the only things I could come up with was meth, crack, or anorexia... none of those sounded too promising... not to mention they are pretty unhealthy, so Im gonna stick with salad and water. Yummy... or not. I hate diets. Im sure it wont last long.
This is a bunch of rambling. 
So a freaking cell phone in the next couple of weeks (hopefully). Now everyone can get ahold of me!!
Nothing makes an ackward situation like meeting the new girlfriend of an old umm person you were talking to. Yeah. Pretty sweet. 
I get to sleep in tomorrow. Hell Yes!!
Im getting my trampoline back when my WT cousin moves to FL!!
Im pretty sure that Im ditching prom next year. Eh, hows that for a random piece of info.
Oh... Wanna know what I love... when someone you trust goes and tells someone something they arent supposed to. Yeah. F*cking cool.
Well I think I shall go for now. Goodnight all. 
*Kelsie Marie*
p.s. Drive Safely, and wear your seatbelts.

I would probably trade my life to see this man tonight and tomorrow night. Too bad the only reason I wont be there is because of frickin SATS.